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WELCOME
The past few days I have been pondering my decision on leaving the church community once and for all. I have thought through, not being serious, losing the faith, regaining the faith, and losing it all again. It is just... tiring. Quarrel with shepherd. Fear of losing them. Might as well lose them and lose the fear. What about God? I have never said I would forsake him. By going to the church I have. I rely on people more than God. So it is time I should go.
Anyway. DMD this week is a killer. Web design. GUI sketches not approved. Must do pixel character 16 different sizes of 4 views. Pgames go crazy with concept. I thought Games was for slackers. It is NOT! It is less than animation (MAYBE) ... But it is worst than IM. IM may be alot of typing but Games is alot of typing and conceptualising. IM... I'm not sure. Someone talk about IM? Animation is just hardcore motion, motion and more motion. You just can't stop the shit from flowing.
Games you kind of get the shit right on. I really need to draw on God's power instead of stupid people power. CONFIDENCE!
Anyway just lose it all for DMD. It is a NO SLACK. One second slack... Okay not one second. Maybe a few days or one lesson. Once you miss it you are out of the game. Anyway. Time to sign off. I have to relax now. So CYA!
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8:59 AM.
Today I finished my GUI sketches and my VART sketches and some research. Phew. These days I feel more slackened than I was in YEAR 1. I remembered that YEAR 1... DESFD was a torture and you'd just go and die doing those design shit. Moreover COLOR was a motivation killer. Now WEBDSN is the new killer with HTML as a start. You try and try but sometimes it just don't work the way you want. My friend said CSS is harder... But more people use it for tools for websites; like the scrollbar and customizations for web. VART is to make your eyes go bonkers. PIXEL ART is cool!! But will go crazy. I ROAR in delight. Haven't started on my CM... When should I start on the base design? SOON I guess. Maybe tomorrow can throw some effort while in class. Haiz. Anyway. See you soon. Stay tune to my post-ez.
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4:37 AM.
The other day ADZ, my classmatte, asked me what kind of girl I preferred. I said the strong type. The strong type... Either they are very confident personality-wise, or athletic. Well... I prefer those who are strong emotionally. They are able to control their emotions well. Just unlike me. I being very easily affected by emotions need someone who is emotionally stable to tide me through my emotional difficulties.
LOTS of homework! Thank God I am determined not to falter. I do my work consistently and... I am quite the anti-social guy. The other day they were talking about some Gay Club. Dunno which GAY they are referring to. Talking about this Gay Club... I was thinking about who this person initiating the Gay Club in NYP is. God forbid homosexuality...ADZ STOP SATANIC PROPAGANDA!
I don't really like people who smoke. Yet NYP got so many smokers. Well if they don't smoke it's okay. Really admire those who can control themselves in the midst of other non-smokers. Those who encourage people to smoke should go to hell. Sorry don't know why I am so against smokers. My secondary school influence maybe.
DMDers all improving in their works. What about me? Time to show some POWER. I have many people to crush. Some are almost undisputable. Now all the small fry are gone. It's time to face the challenge. In every game is a challenge. Life is a game in itself. If games did not exist, then life would not exist. But if animation exists, we still have film and video. You don't need to have animation in life, we need MOTION. Animation is stop motion. Which is dumb-ass. STOPS the motion of life. That's why people in animation all die young.
Just kidding people, it's not certified. Haiz. I skipped service twice already. God forgive me okay? I don't like my sheperd. He is so half-ass. DET guy. A sheperd in hope church takes care of another believer jr. I don't know what they are thinking. I don't think they know what I'm thinking, coz I don't tell them. I need to be accountable but yet I'm so hypocritcal. Haiz. So tiring.
I'll end here... See ya next time.
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10:55 PM.
Today morning went back to retrieve my lost hard disk at 0800 A.M at NYP, however I did not manage to do so.
-SAD-
I went to the admin office and prayed hard for it to be there, but it wasn't. But the pretty admin lady was very kind and told me to wait for a reply. But most likely, I believe that it is GONE FOR GOOD.
-CRY-
So as prompted by the pretty admin lady, I went back to search for the hard disk again. It was gone as expected.
-~-
Actually I really thank God for today because THE FILES IN THE MAC SINCE LAST WEEK WERE NOT deleted. I was elated as I did not have to do the homework I left in the hard disk again. After that I went to MAC after doodling with the 2nd CampUSTransX postcard, met up with my DMD-dears. After that they went for their 3D lessons. Then I loitered outside waiting for them, and at the same time finished a sketch of my Crystal Maiden[dotA character], to be painted later. AFTER THAT WE WENT TO SUMO HOUSE TO EAT, a most disgusting Zaru Soba, I would say. I felt tempted to eat the complimentary chicken cutlet, but abstinence prevailed.
-~-
Sometimes life is very boring. We just do what we need to do, and not what we want to do. Sometimes it is really painful, trying to open up but being as icy cold, like the distasteful Zaru Soba.
~MED~
I understood what Leslie said yesterday about time spent. When one of my DMD-comeraderies left to do homework, he returned soon after to retrieve his thumbdrive he left behind. In seeing so, his time with the group nourished and sprouted the stems of relationship and connection.
-END-
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8:12 AM.
Here is a postcard I did. It's for the CampUSTransX[Missions]. Sounds cool eh? The postcard is nice. Took 2 hours to do, including resting time and eating time. Haha. You can comment on it in the CBOX.
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4:11 AM.
This is my blog. Have a look around.
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3:32 AM.
About Me
Rayiant Goh Swee Heng
NYP Digital Media Design
Group 05-07
Sketch Club (Tenative)
Fulfill My Vision
Graduate From NYP
Eat Well
Sleep Well
Meditate Well
Develop My Vision
Get To University
Reserved and meditative. Crude in the event of being scrutinized. Loves beautiful and mysterious things. Dull but creative. Love thoughtful people but will become overly emotionalwhen faced with neglect and trouble.
